Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Day +202 One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

Blood Counts:
HBG: 14.8
PLT: 145
WBC: 5.63
ANC: 3.73

After much to-do with the insurance company and pharmacy, I finally started Jakafi.  And it seems to be helping.  I started on a dose of 5mg in the morning and 5mg at night, and my fingers feel somewhat better.  The doctors have decided to increase the dose to 10mg AM and 10mg PM to see if it can make me feel MUCH better.  It took literally four phone calls back and forth to the pharmacy, conferencing in my insurance company, and back to the doctor to actually get that prescription filled, and I went without the Jakafi for four days in the mean time.  And my left ankle started hurting so badly, that it felt like I was injured.  I've been back on the higher dose for four days now, and my ankle still feels like it's sprained.  The joint is sore to the touch, and sensitive to movement, but I *think* it is starting to get better, because a few days ago, I could barely walk on it without wincing in pain.  My fingers have been a little stiff too, so I'm hoping it's just a matter of the drug making its way back in my system, and hoping that my joint issues are not progressing.

I'm still on prednisone, and I hate it.  My dosage was reduced from 20mg to 15mg at my appointment last week, but I still am feeling prednisone side effects pretty hard.  It makes me literally feel like I'm starving.  In the middle of the night.  I wake up out of a dead sleep, pantry eat something - usually a handful of trail mix, or chocolate chips, or a spoon of peanut butter, pound an entire diet coke in about 3 minutes - and then go back to bed.  It's absolutely ridiculous, and super counter-productive to my whole trying to lose weight mission.  I've started putting a banana or an apple on the shelf in the pantry, and pre-tracking my midnight snack into my daily calories, but the hunger will not be assuaged by fruit. 

The sleep is still fucked up too.  Maybe improving a little bit, since I rarely lay awake for hours, but I do usually wake up at 4-something AM, and lay there til what I deem is a decent hour to get up, which in my world is 5 AM.  I'm only sleeping about 6ish hours a night, and I feel tired all of the time.

And my face.  Oh, my poor puffy face.  I'm growing some very floofy, odd colored hair, but even that exciting milestone is eclipsed by the size of my round face. 
What's your name, little boy?
Fat Face Mcgee'n it
I don't know what I'd envisioned regarding my hair regrowth, but I promise you, this isn't it.  

Sometimes I feel like I'm not making much progress, because I'm still taking most of the medications that I was taking when I was released from the hospital (minus the IVIG infusions).  Some of the dosages have been reduced, but at almost seven months post transplant I am still on:

Noxafil
Atovaquone
Acyclovir
Pantoprazole
Magnesium Protein
Tacrolimus
Prednisone
Vitamin D
Jakafi

I also am still traveling to UCLA to see the doctor every two weeks, as my blood counts still require close monitoring (especially on Jakafi, as it can cause lowered blood counts) and my symptoms are being evaluated, and my medications are constantly being adjusted.  The doctors tell me that I am doing incredibly well, which makes me feel very sorry for the other transplant patients that they see that aren't, because I don't feel incredibly well. I can only imagine how they must feel.